please try famciclovir, an anti-viral medication that can be prescribed by your vet. Anyways I let that slide. We cant give medical advice without an evaluation. Ive wondered did he suffer. At that moment, there was a big crowd in front of the desk. I want to smile again. 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He passed on Nov 27. The loneliness is becoming more than I can handle. At the 6 month mark, I bought a new bedroom set to replace the one we bought together & shared for 17 & 1/2 yearsI spent the first 3 years continuing the remodeling we had begun in our 110 y/o home we purchased to fix up together. I have read countless grief books, some ok and some totally useless (for me). I was a supervisor. from Gainesville) and no one sells it near me. I know that he isnt in pain anymore, he doesnt suffer anymore and I try to find solace in that but it doesnt ease my loneliness or longing for him. So I am hoping to connect with a of widows and widowers who are similarly going these experiences, and that we can support each other, albeit it is online. Can you explain that for me. My birthday is 11/27 & I avoided it completely. I just had my lower right wisdom tooth pulled yesterday and this pain is the worst. A calm mind is elusive & I fear, impossible anymore. The ones that dont feel like you have anything to live for. Another night alone, there is just no joy in my life anymore.. Ive had to put their grief into perspective. Blessings, JaiElle. Im glad I could give something back to you. Or is there too much potassium in it?. I am a hospice nurse by tradenothing could have prepared me for my sweet and loving husband dying as I held him and express my love and asking for forgiveness for all of my shortcomings. But I bet you we can step it up just a little bit and make a lot more improvement. There is no cure for herpes in humans or animals. There are reasons why I would want to especially include aloe vera and other foods, when fighting a disease even though aloe is not a known cure. Nothing makes me happy. I knew, tonight, I had to do my best to comfort and help an aching soul. We finished a 3 week round of Famciclovir and a couple days later I noticed she was starting to relapse back to being lethargic and not eating as much. It almost makes me question myself, as in am I not grieving acceptably? Then she developed eye ulcers. Giving thanks for bringing my husband Into my life, for my children, for all of the wise widows on this site. I feel like this is my husband and my life to a T!! He did not. We decided not to get anymore as we wanted to travel and Steve was a few years from retiring. I felt that sense that nowhere was comfortable. I dont know if my time will be short behind him or if it will be later. Hi JR, I lost my husband ten days ago to a rare, sudden illness and now I feel like Im in Hell, trying to claw my way into some kind normalcy that will never exist. My heart and chest aches everyday. He has serous health issues and I have tried my best to help . I cant even image how Im going to live without him. Thank you for making me feel a little better, Im so devastated after a life of 52yrs of joy with my Husband , we did everything together we truly were joined at the HIP , I cant imagine doing anything without him .my word for all of this would be Diabolical , I lost my partner of 10 yrs on August 17th 2017 its been 6 weeks now, I cant stop crying I miss him so much, he left behind a 6 yr old son and a 8 yr old daughter, my son is special needs and keeps see in men that look like his dad, he shouts for him but of course they dont answer to which he says why he not talk to me I feel my heart cracking every time, I have family of sorts, my mum knew he was dying but I havent heard or seen from her for over a yr, shes even changed her mobile number so I cant ring her, that makes me sad as she cant even be here for her little grandchildren. I dont know what is normal anymore. At the end I had to ask them to stop their futile treatments and move him to hospice . Im now focused on improving her immune system so shes not suffering esp during the Spring and Summer and renew her love of time in the garden ???????????? Oh yes, panic attacks too, out of no where. Don't ask me why cause I don't know. I can pick out things to decorate and such and I know how to make all that come together but the labor of putting down hardwood floors or putting up tiles and painting I absolutely hate. Had 4 teeth pulled 4 days ago. My cat doesnt have the respiratory issue but her eye is the problem. He described himself as first: Ahnas husband. My husband soulmate died 12/25/20, Im still trying to deal with all the emotion. My husband died a few months ago (8year struggle) after a fierce battle with cancer(kidney and bone)pain, broken bones, covid, 24/7 caregivers, my privacy invaded by a constant barrage of strangers, losing money and more. Your young son may like kid groups like boy scouts where you can be a leader or volunteer. Your story sounds so much like mine, except I was more sexually active (felt I needed a guy prior to all this for my kids, etc). I have always been very independent but now that the closing of my home is a mere weeks away I struggle a bit with the unknown. As you implied, you can learn to live but you dont want to without him. Watch this and try again https://youtu.be/rKXLMD2Dv8o. I am living my life with a happy heartI chose to be happy and although I still have my bad days I am living and building a new life for myselfyou will do the same.. I feel exactly the same way. He was wonderful, understanding, and totally loved his wife and family. It was not easy but, I promised him and myself that I would care for him as long as i physically and emotionally could. I, too remember your post and our similar experiences. It is still emotional to be leaving but each day I am a bit more confident in my decision. I feel exactly the same. Its a antiviral drug for herpes. My thoughts are out of my control. Sarah. I know I could be destroying his life but I am weak. Watch breaking news videos, viral videos and original video clips on CNN.com. We have a memorial service planned for this weekend. He never came home again. My Blood pressure is high, Is it is good to take aloe vera juice daily. Also a batch of great mashed potatoes. The product is dr. Mercola probiotic for dogs and cats, not sure why this did not post earlier. Sagess. Since then, my stomach (or colon) hurt/discomfort every day. Thank you all. If you do a blind taste test with Georges aloe vs. water, I dont know of anyone that would tell the two apart going by taste and texture. Ugh! 4. sheri, i lost my husband oct 17. i feel exactly the same way as you do. Now, with the holidays fast approaching, I have a sense of dread instead of excitement like I always normally have. Its easier to stay home and cry, but it does no good. I chose to go on without him, to be there for my girls no matter what. The pandemic prevented proper closure, and the family will never be the same. Luckily the medicine and ointment he was prescribed cleared things up and hes been doing well .. up until recently. You go through the motions as if youre switching gears, simply to move. Causing stress and harassing, not paying me and has huge trailor parked in driveway. Dennis. Tears kept coming down whileshe talked about her passedhusband. I do not have children and only have one brother and we are not close. I know its passive aggressive but its how Ive been dealing with it. Nothing we did for the next week brought & kept his ICP down. We knew his outcome wasnt good. I have to go to he bank t o put my sons name on my checking and I can barely move with tears in m eyes. I felt the same after my husband died in 2020. MY car door was closed again like nothing happened and there were no footprints or dents where they stood on my car. They both lost their husbands last year and feel the same as me. My situation is a little different- I practiced abstinence for 29 years before meeting the love of my life. Did you stop withnthe blowjobs? Hang in there and good luck. No one really understands,not my children,they have their own lives. Pretend to? Good luck with the future. I sometimes feel overwhelmed by all of the things that are now my responsibility. Any advice that can possibly help me since my circumstances are so different? So Im sitting here alone in this house and all I want to do is runIm 68 years old as was he. You would have to take those questions to that specific manufacturer. You grieve at your own pace. Nights are the worst, I am afraid, I listen for noises. They have been my saving grace!! It didnt stop so vet gave her some antibiotic drops for 7 days. Us . We raised 3 children and have been blessed with 7 grandchildren. Except now I know whats really important in life, helping and loving others. I lost my husband of 40 years on Jan 4, unexpectedly. Every fiber of my being is in pain. Ill never have that again. Now that hes gone, my life is so very sad. I bought it at my local Whole Foods. My distress is enormous and I want to not go on without him. Given 3-6 months. I'm just really hurt and feel unwanted, undesirable, and not attractive( even though people & strangers tell me all the time. Beside myself with pain and I handle this totally opposite than is !!! I lost my husband 6 months ago. I am sorry. I live alone, in apartment where I cant have a dog. He was in bad shape for close to ten years before he died. Another book called Through a Lions Eyes is also helpful in seeing the insanity we feel is normal. Now can you explain why he saved pictures of his high school steady girlfriend even though they broke up because her parents did not think he would not earn a good income? Its not easy and the ache and sadness can be overwhelming. I am 48 and left with two teens to raise. We do have a son thats 29 he has a life. I always hated that he smoked, but his doctor told him to quit when he was in his 50s and he did, but I guess it was too late. I thought the physicians said there is no cure for HSV 2!!! Prayers & hugs to you. I dont know how Im going to go on without him. I tried Calais and it didnt really do anything. Dont just treat the symptoms. Blessings to all of you. Everything is nothing without my husband. Thanks again. Replayed it a few times already . Hugs. AskMen, Become a Better Man, Big Shiny Things, Mantics and guyQ are among the federally registered trademarks of Ziff Davis Canada, Inc. and may not be used by third parties without explicit permission. He was a great father. I am so sorry Lena for your loss. Then he took a turn for the worse and he was gone. This is my saddest time. Ive had my vaccines, survived the long dark hours of winter, continue to walk my dog. Or maybe try another church. If it is bitter to you, add just 1 or 2 drops stevia. He comforted me when my job was tough and we had an amazing love. And it scares the hell out of me; but I know you put one foot in front of the other, you move, you breathe, then you figure out for yourself what makes you happy. I was there for a week, waiting watching, finally they let our border collie who loved him so much , in the room with me which I felt was incredibly nice, and which helped me SO MUCH having her there, and I was hoping in my soul, if there was anything left of my Tony he would know we were there. Ive decided I wont sit at home on the weekends any longer because I worry I might miss one of the kids coming by, as Ive come to realize they usually dont. I cant talk to anyone they dont get it. I love him so much. How can you leave me I asked myself. Every morning I prepare water and lemon and cut about 3inches of the plant and I take the inner gel and swallow it with the water and lemon. Lysine works great for my kitty too. Still dont understand it to this day. OMG! your post is very compassionate. But now being alone is unbearable. You performed a very good service for a person in true need. 46 years my. I prefer a more homeopathic route.though I dont have access to a homeopathic vet. My husband is still alive. My mother-in-law took Goldie to the vet, who gave her some antibiotics. They were pulled for poor dental care. Reading your story Carol it could be mine except I knew my husband for three years before marriage. If you want to use lysine, use it sparlingly. Interesting that for years men who have had affairs because their wife had no interest were vilified and told that the problem was theirs, it was on then to seduce the wife, remain as exciting as a stranger, on and on My boyfriend and I have been dating for 4 years now and Im having the same experience. Now I feel totally empty and detached from everything around me even though I have a loving family. I just cant do it alone. Eventually we allowed ourselves to cope individually. Now, to have to do life alone is scary. I hate it, But I exist alone. Society in general believes that we should be better within their time frame just bc they have moved on? We were talking and he stretched his long arms like I have seen a thousand times. May I humblyshare my thoughts. . You will have more productive days and that is a good sign. The move was such a difficult and emotional event for all of us, but in the long haul definitely for the best. To date, he is still healthy after several weeks of this other cat in the house, but since I can't keep this cat indefinitely cooped up in one room and let her roam throughout my house because of my other cat, or ever put her back outside again, or give her to anyone else who will possibly have to deal with a lifetime of health issues, I am seriously considering having her euthanized. Since losing my husband, the friends that I had that I thought were close,never call. He eats a raw prey model diet, no vaccines (except when he was a young cat), no toxic cleansers in the house, etc. I just joined recently. Not the last day, or the months of struggle prior to that day, but the happy times, the pictures in my head of laughter and joy. I was awake during the procedure of my teeth being pulled from my body; however, I had the dentist give me so many pain shots that I didn't feel a thing - not even the pressure that literally everyone said would be felt. I AM SO SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS. The eyes on the two week old kittens were opening except 2 there was a white substance which turned out to be scar tissue from the herpes. Making tough decisions should be done when we are thinking more clearly. Its a venture I started just today, to help women who need support and encouragement. further more unlike regular mixed cats, Bengals have unique endearing traits such as being very friendly, loving water, and playing fetch. We are going on 28 years of a second marriage. Of course smoking I knew wouldnt help, but at the time I didnt know how bad it would be for what he had that we had basically forgotten about ( and doctors all missed) that his first doctor before he went on disability, told him he had calcium in his veins, or put another way plaque. My friend now needs to be a companion to another women who has lost someone due to covid. In the weeks following his death, I tried to fool myself into thinking that hes just gone on another trip and hell be back. I also took in a roommate since Bobby died on 9/28/19. It is in many of the foods we eat. Its helping me alot. Im overwhelmed with deep sadness like yourself. We had a wonderful marriage and everybody says how they looked up to us that good marriages do exist. He never wants to just sit and talk and sex is almost always out of the question We have sex once every week or 2 weeks but when we do its fast or sloppy. Hope you can help But i will try to love again my husband was clear that he wanted me to grieve and then live a full life. You may think a certain food is the root cause, but food allergies are actually quite uncommon in adults, says .css-7qz8rz{-webkit-text-decoration:underline;text-decoration:underline;text-decoration-thickness:0.0625rem;text-decoration-color:#f7623b;text-underline-offset:0.25rem;color:inherit;-webkit-transition:background 0.4s;transition:background 0.4s;background:linear-gradient(#ffffff, #ffffff 50%, #feebe7 50%, #feebe7);-webkit-background-size:100% 200%;background-size:100% 200%;}.css-7qz8rz:hover{color:#000000;text-decoration-color:border-link-body-hover;-webkit-background-position:100% 100%;background-position:100% 100%;}Thomas Vanderheyden, DO, a gastroenterologist at Michiana Gastroenterology. I live now with a huge hole in my soul. He would be 70 this month. You sound a lot like me. Dont look too far into the future. I cant get a job right now because I care for my grand baby full time. Any Social services that help you with your sons needs? I feel so lost and alone. I revisit them often, and smile. You women were lucky and blessed. Being torn between wanting to care for your mother and live a fulfilling life is a emotionally painful and taxing experience. There are so many of us who are grieving the loss of one we loved so much. Rebecca, I am so sorry. God bless you! I dont have many ( if any ) friends. We all deserve to heal. There is hope, please dont give up. Its great for humans and animals! You can do it!. He told me and my daughter that he wanted to be cremated and didnt want a church service, and he wanted this to happen as soon as possible. But I would never market Aloe vera for fertility. You feel tired, lonely, and overwhelmed with grief. Does aloe vera cure these dermalogical conditions. I seen that he had been taking stamina pills and asked him why and he says for us but in the back of my mind I didn't believe him idk why.. but I didn't say anything but ok but he watches porn daily and I asked him how can he watch porn on his phone all the time and not be interested in your high sex driven wife that wants you all the time.. he didn't know.. but when we do have sex it's so boring and doenst last long at all and he knocks out right after and I worry and ask is it me whats wrong am I not attractive to you he says everything is fine he loves me our sex and everythingbut How? 21 years of marriage and almost 15 years sexless! Miss his company, voice, lovethis just plain old sucks! Many people pass alone. She had to have surgery to remove the ulcer that had formed. They are all grown, 3 are married and 1 will be getting married in December. I also love looking at old photos of him and us together as it brings back so many happy memories for me. I hope you are doing better.. A lady came to the desk seeking information about the hotel so that she could stay one night and continue her journey the next morning. So sorry for your shocking experience and your loss. I pushed our marriage to survive for a good 10 years. For my cat it works like magic. I know how you feel, I lost my husband almost a year ago. Thankyou for your kind words and thankyou for remebering me. The kidney was removed after 6 months. How do I feel right now? Hang in there, Joanne. I work 10 hours a day as a teacher. I am the 63 years old, asian female , 96lbs , 5 01 , petite, I have been drinking Alovera gel (boil with water)last few week , 2 leave /week. Tom was a wonderful man and father to our two children. If you can write a journal. Their. He was my whole world. Hi Chris,I also have diverticulosis.Where can I buy a box of whole leaf of aloe Vera ?thanks,Eddie. I am beyond devastated. Oh, Ive got scissors for hands. The doc wasn't comfortable with doing that so he referred him. I feel sick at times-We were very much in love and extremely close-We did everything together; we loved traveling and we could relax for hours together just reading snd having snacks , talking & enjoying each others company-he too took care of the home repairs snd yard work was one of his hobbies,along with cooking which we did as a team on holidays-He was so bright filled with curiosity, and everyone loved him-When he died I no longer knew how to function-I have been inundated with home repairs,hiring landscapers ect which isis very expensive and it is very difficult to find people that you can trust-Our daughter lives very close and has been wonderful-She has a family of her own and I dont want her to burden herself with caring for me!I am so upset with life but I am a person of faith which gives me comfort-But wow I miss his attention ,his kisses hello and goodbye, his text snd phone calls and just his mere presence-Im miserable-Its been nine long months snd not getting much better. They want us to be strong and remember they are with us always. No secret way to get thru this, just remember the good times we were blessed to be with them, eventho we want more of them. How do I get past this? But I hate it that I was not there to be with him. His death has changed me and my life forever. I married my husband after 3 years of dating. How could this have happened to us ?! When my mother-in-law decided to adopt another cat, she chose a local cage-free rescue, where she adopted an orange tabbynamed Goldie. Has it been years that Ive been writing? its a scary world! He always had a beautiful smile on his face and always tried to make me laugh as well as other people. I have 1 girlfriend that I usually visit 1 night a week. Ive been on meds. I wish I had an answer for you, but alas, I have yet to get to a place in my grief that the loneliness doesnt feel overwhelming & so very heavy each day. I have never been alone and have no idea who I am but I am sure with Gods help and with people who impart their wisdom I will be able to navigate a new path. Could it be a fungus infection instead? Another round of meds. We were married for 42 years and now my life is empty and I am so lost without him. One vet prescribed steroids for my cat and they worked, but another vet warned that steroids suppress the immune system so he does not recommend them against a viral infection like herpesvirus. When the funeral director handed me the death certificate info to sign, it showed my maiden name (he had asked me what it was when he was filling out the forms and I didnt know why at the time) and I said no that is wrong, I need my married name on it. We can sort of heal, but will always love and miss them. I get scared that I will die from this pain & grief and my children will be left motherless too. I lost my husband on 27th March to a brain tumour. I find I am more adventurous and last year went Zip linning and goal this year is to go Skydiving. A sadness of which I have never experienced. I live alone and have no desire to get a dog or cat etc. I feel God has taken His hand off me. We were together 13 years. All the good and bad. I hope you can move on because no one should be treated this way by a person they love. One of my daughters came to the conclusion independently. Barnali, I think this might answer your question: Is It Safe To Drink Aloe Vera? Im not. It will be good for you to have new memories and since your husband didnt like traveling, no reason to feel sad or guilty for going. In the past whenever I sent out a sympathy card to someone, I usually said something along the lines of may your memories provide comfort. Losing the cat suddenly (he had been drooling for a few weeks and it got worse and found out he had jaw cancer and was in pain) opened the wound of losing Steve. I find every day so hard to cope with. My cat is 4 yrs old now but he had FHV when I adopted him as a kitten from the shelter. When they told me he didnt make it, my world changed that day. I have complete faith that I will get through this, all of us can if we let God take care of us through these hurtful, and sad times. Good nutrition can help anyone whether fighting an illness or not. Im eager, but am allowing life to take its toll & run its course. Im hoping the aloe will help them. I am broken and so sad. Watching him deteriorate for 23 days in the hospital was traumatizing & so painful. I was left with a financial mess too. Wishing you some peace. I thought for sure that meant God was healing him and he was coming home to me. Its been one yr today and my 3 children and their kids are holding a small ceremony on the property he built from a corn field to this paradise, he built and planted every thing on our homestead of 49 yrs. We have to be these days. I wish I could give you more than this I wish I had a magic wand that could turn back time and erase sorrow but all I have to offer is my writing, The Most Powerful Way to Deal With Your Fear of Being Alone https://blossomtips.com/how-to-deal-with-fear-of-being-alone/. He loved you and wanted a life and family with YOU. I have been at it for almost eight years. You need to move away from there back to friends or family members. He took a week off from May to October and in July and Oct wed have what we called bd week and wed go out from morning til night and just enjoy being with each other. Sorry for your loss. She told me that I shouldve fought longer & harder, that I should have not been so selfish by giving up on him & shouldve kept him alive on life support indefinitely. It takes a long time to learn to love your partner; his music, his food, his art, his favourite people. They are coming 10/18/21. Maybe hes old. Were working through it. I hope it works thank you for suggesting it. Had a bowl of tortilla soup for dinner (sans the tortilla strips). My father died in 2015, my husband in 2017 & my estranged mother in March of 2020 of a mysterious, devastating new respiratory virus that a few weeks later, would shut down the entire planet. When do we remove all of Daddys things that are a reminder he is gone? He needed a new heart and a new kidney but he was too old he was 70, but a young 70. My eldest two children refuse to get vaccinated, so I cannot see them & they despise talking on the phone. I hope for peace at some level for us all! Like you, living alone terrified me. Thanks for letting me rant. I just couldnt look at it one more moment. My husband passed just 7 years ago in August, and I made a very hard decision to go out that day with friends and try not to think about what day it was. People, when scared can be rude and thoughtless. Hi Dorene, So sorry for your loss. My wife was only 38 she had a heart defect we found out about 5 years ago. I am 54 and my fiance died in 2019 and my husband in 2005. I was told I could drink aloe vera juice to help nerve function and decrease inflammation that causes back pain. I wake up with panic attacks and am afraid to go to sleep at night. The deepest connection I will ever have. We were married 42 years when he passed suddenly. Because the pancreas produces enzymes that help with digestion, pancreatitis occurs when those enzymes are released too soon and attack the pancreas instead of food in your stomach. They were going to do the surgery to put some type of implant in his chest because it wasnt physical apnea, his brain wasnt telling him to breathe at night. Being that for him was the greatest honor of my life. The sadness will always be there but In my experience reaching out to persons who feel the same way make it easier and safer to express your feelings without judgement. Best of luck to u, and God Bless U. my husband passed away after 38 years of marriage. I still think wait til he hears this, and then realize hes not here anymore, but I still talk to him. I have been with my husband for 9yrs and married 8.5yrs. My cat is one that is extremely tricky to dose, but she does allow me to put my arm under front armpits, therefore with her paws dangling down. But, give yourself time. Looking back I dont think so as I have had to slow down bc of emotional and physical exhaustion but SOMEHOW I kept on going. dont know how to do this. I did this in small increments and after some time I found another person with whom I fell in love and to share my life. He was retired. This stuff is also used by humans I tasted it and its completely taste and odor free so my cat didnt seem to detect it when she ate. XXOOXX. Ive tried everything to heal but Im getting nowhere. Hi, my husband died of the same illness. My doctor put me on a liquid diet because of my flare ups. My heart goes out to you. Together with the Legislature, California is taking the most aggressive action on climate our nation has ever seen. Risk factors of SIBO include advanced age, prior abdominal surgery, autoimmune disorders, or chronic constipation, says Dr. Vanderheyden. Let Catster answer all of your most baffling feline questions! Like you, I thought my sweet husband & I would grow old together, but he went to work one day, fell from a scaffold & he died 6 days later when I finally agreed to take him off life support. The worry of making sure you have the money and that you have honest people working for you adds to all the stress. I also read that crab cakes are okhaven't tried it tho. One child lives in Fl. Im so lonely most of the time. Terrible. And I'm a huge baby. I figure if I can afford to file bankruptcy; then everything will be removed from my credit history. Hi Alessandra, I am so, so sorry for your loss. I never quite got over that, never really trusted him again. Ive tried gardening, projects, crafts etc. I am a more solitary soul that likes adult company I am in Thr now where zone . My husband has not missed me or shown any affection in a long time and absolutely so sex in 9 years. I feel like a horse or some sort of creature. He was diagnosed about six months before he retired and battled it for almost two years before he died. I have two more large jugs and not sure I can tolerate that much of the bitterness. Im isolating myself and only leave the house for work and food. I have tried to be extremely patient and understanding. Covid sucks. That is not the issue in my case. I drove home, scared. Im 28 years old and lost my husband of nearly 9 years in January 1 month after beind diagnosed with a grade 4 brain tumour the size of a tennis ball. And so the one year anniversary of my husbands passing has passed. I quit working after the 6th time doctors told us he wouldnt make it. Remember to make everything soft! How long are we going to be in this space its the worst thing Iv ever been through. Furniture is not exciting and fairly uninteresting. Hi Pat, this is Karen G. I wanted to ask you something since you are a couple of years living with this. Anyways, hope this helps! I am 49 & dont think that there is anything foolish about your pain & loss. Ran a business together. A widow at 44I can only imagine how tough it is to raise three kids without a husband or their father around. I moved out for awhile, he sought treatment and was taking his meds. They try to determine if Im having a good day by the sound of my voice by saying you sound a little better today. The walls are cold and silent. I will continue to read you. I am devastated and I feel totally hopeless. Looking forward to hearing from you,Sie, As long as it is a fresh leaf and you filet it properly you might want to search our YouTube channel for How To Filet Aloe Vera just to make sure. I know when people are giving advice and telling you So sorry, we are praying for you or Itll get better with time can feel so shallow and insincere, especially when they have no grasp of the hurt we are feeling. Would that be enough? The initial take your breath away intensity has diminished a bit, but it seems as though the intense sorrow will never disappear. This site is the right place to share and express your sorrow. I could feel it. The hollow inside is just that. 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Maybe you want to talk about your husband more or maybe you talk to him all the time! Im going to soak in the suns healing rays and remind myself that it is only one day. I too have spoken to two Mediums. 1 year later he moved in with me. I have no diseases. We tell our IBD customers that, although Aloe might help with your symptoms, you have to stop eating the inflammatory foods (wheat seems to be the worst) and start eating whole foods that are good for you and anti-inflammatory if you ever really want to get well. Therefore, anyone taking blood sugar lowering medications should consult with a physician before consuming Aloe vera. My husband died almost two months ago. I said honey squeeze my hand. I would just ask your vet about it. That is such crap. From eating alone to buying for one. Love & hugs to you. There is no known cause for Crohn's disease, but it is typically related to your diet and genetics, says Dr. Jacobs. I, too have only relied on God and my children. God has guided me. I think about him constantly. But many people do both! I have depended on God more than I probably should, but I know not everyone believes. But I find seeing people is worse than being alone. Is there someone at the hospital who can help. Or take classes or audit some at a college or university 5. I didnt know that when I took him into emergency Dec 26/18 that that would be the last time he would ever be home with me. 2) What would be a good starting dose for my 7 year old with severe GI dysfunction? I feel like you do. We were inseparable. One step at a time. Famciclovir is great but costly and damaging to kidneys long term! I have been grieving for some time now. Cant even imagine having any kind of life going forward. Just drinks a lot. So, because I didnt think anthing would go wrong, I didnt take the opportunity to share my deepest love for him until it was too late. I feel that I was so overwhelmed that I wasnt truly able to fully grasp the concept that he is gone. Dana, Dana My husband died September 8, 2019 and I too was better after 3 months but now I feel like Im back a there at 4 months, crying everyday (not ugly cry) just tearing at anything that reminds me of US or our life. Thank youlearning to live without my husband is where I am atits a bit confusing so I just take it one day at a time. He was also a young 63, passed on suddenly from a procedure at the hospital in 2021. I hate sitting on the patio alone, watching the horses play alone, smelling the desert rain alone, hearing the birds chirping alone, watching our Grandies run and play at the place we built alone, getting in the hot tub alone, driving our big truck alone, hauling horses alone, making life altering decisions alone, camping alone, watching the hummingbirds alone, roping alone, cooking breakfast on the weekends alone, telling our stories alone, going to bed alone, wearing my wedding band alone, washing only one coffee cup alone, getting groceries alone, listening to music alone, taking a bubble bath alone, waking up alone, cant dance- alone, drinking morning coffee alone, having a slumber party with our Grandies alone, watering our trees alone, facing fears alone, coming home alone, seeing our friends alone, watching Yellowstone alone, smelling the fire burning in the fireplace alone, watching our family grow up alone, seeing the moonrise over our mountains alone, the sunset washing the day away alone, choosing and putting up the Christmas tree alone, the sight and smell of our fresh cut grass alone, having a birthday alone, tromping through the snow and mud to feed animals alone, parenting our grown children and their families alone, picking our apricots and peaches alone, sitting by the fire alone, riding horses alone, having a nice cold beer alone, going to functions alone, hearing the wind chimes alone and still loving him alone. For some reason these well meaning comments really got to me. I miss him so much. It's funny though cause I have never turned him down, not once in our 10 year and some relationship. No present and no future Life has no meaning and purpose, it is not worth living anymore, my kids are grown and my relationship with the youngest is estranged. I am angry their life is going on when mine has been torn apart I try to stay busy but the tears are not far off. people need to understand its not congestion per se which is from infection virus in that like in a human cold or flu itd be thick and pus like etc.. its pure WATER and thats not good! He has a family and now has become ill which does not leave time for him to show me how to talk to doctors via computer. My soul mate, love of my life, developed Lewy Body dementia five years ago, so I slowly lost him as I knew him before. I watched him wither and had to pull the plug. Im going to continue since it really cant do harm for me. December 8th will be one year since I lost my husband of 28 years. But God did not let my Husband suffer and I thank him for that. He was 10yrs older than your husband, but young stillToo young to be gone, but disappeared from the planet in the blink of an eye also. I wish there was, but Ive found no solace in anything said to me. The pain and truth that I am without him seems unbearable while life seems meaningless, lonely and empty. We finished that round and thought it was all better. Hi! That doesnt make me suicidal or pessimistic, it makes me, me. Ill be sharing my list with my children and my friends. Im not in the best health, and I suspect this could be a very stressful issue. I just couldnt and some days still cant wrap my head around the fact that he is gone. He told his friend the day he first saw me Im going to marry that girl someday. Miss him just miss him everyday. I feel if my whole world has fallen upside down. He did ask me to forgive himso I did and now I try to forgive myself. We have 2 beautiful children together. The only prescription that will help kittys eye is codovifor. One thing that helped me was prayer. Brethren I saw a testimony on the internet on how DR.UMA cure HSV, Hepatitis etc with his herbal medication and an email and whatsapp to contact him was also displayed, I thought this was joke but I decided to contact him and he replied telling me not to worry that my problem is over . But when he died of a heart attack in his sleep I was not there. I had rosacea for years. I love my fiance and find her attractive. For example, my husband handled the finances. I left then came back bc of his promises and I guess just fear. Im also 69yrs of age. I feel like I'm 98 years old. From what I understand, Japanese Aloe does NOT contain aloin. I am very restless lately, and just wander through the house. Joanna, My wonderful husband died November 23, 2020. This is a job Id had 15 yrs. Guys feel better this is just temporary. My children have wondered how & why I forget so many things. It gives me a lot of comfort. Learn from this and put your pain in Gods Hands and pray for your husband s soul. Keep sharing Antonella. I cherished every moment with her and appreciated my sisters help but was saddened by my sisters callousness. Your only now probably just feeling the grief. My mom and I were very close but she died in 2017. I realized and am still realizing that grief is very very personal. I was told that it was from being in the sun to much caused it or a side effect from the aloe gel that I take every day. My heart goes out to you and although you have doubts of failing, your actions speak way louder than you know in the best possible way. He passed away 6 short weeks later! He loved me and I wonder if there will ever be anyone to love me like he did. Does it have something to do with the aloe veras absorption qualities or does it affect plastic? How do I know when to let her go back to her house and stay alone? ?? I miss my husband so much and I just want to show him how much I have grown as a person and parent and I want to honor him as I should have. The bible says: For the living know that they shall die: but the dead know not anything. I will do my best. Be patient with yourself, dont be afraid to share your feelings. After a scrappy run in with a couple of the ferals, she came down with symptoms. Hearted. He never called me anything but Precious. I promised God that I would never attempt suicide again if he let our son stay here with us when he was born at 28weeks. Im saying you want a new environment and are able to deal with moving on) whereas your mother, understandably, cannot move on from the past. Best wishes to you in your journey. The void, emptiness, and aloneness is still there. Jan 7th he picked me up from work, we went home and he said his drainage was affecting his asthma, so he took a breathing treatment on his machine. Thank you all for that. I proved to myself I can survive doing things, even though I miss him like crazy. What I saw was awful. Still hurts like hell and Im terrified of getting old and him not being here with me. They assure me that I will get beyond this and will be able to live alone contently. If you experience severe abdominal pain after eating or see blood in your stool, contact a doctor. I felt terrible yesterday for blabbing on so much. I felt like I abandoned him but we didnt. The lady managed to share with me the text message from airline in her cellphone, not knowing: where to find the Airlines discounted voucher for the hotel, the name of the hotel; whether the availability of the transportation to the hotel been possible; the meal dollars; howher checked luggage been handled; and her next morning flight, etc. I love her so much and shes such an active, sweet and loving little girl that I dont regret taking her for one second. I just want to help women Blossom and grow, and my readers love the lift they get from reading it :-) Heres the sign up link: https://eepurl.com/ca2mJr. I guess I was meant to read it. My prayers are with you. I lost my husband one year ago and I am still crying .I feel my heart has been brokenwe would have been married 68 years on December 2021 but he didnt make it ..he left me on October l2 2021 he went into hospital on 0ctober lst which happened to be his birthday and he didnt come back out again l am so sad and lonely there is no joy in my lifeI cannot wait to join him .. Elizabeth the joy you need to find is within you. Ill never be the same. I want so much for things to be like they were before he got sick. Dyspepsia causes abdominal pain, bloating, and feelings of fullness after you eat, says Scott Gabbard, MD, a gastroenterologist at the Cleveland Clinic. I want her love to be perfect like it was, but now it seems irreparable. If it was for me and from our brand no outer leaf parts I would say 12 ounces! in the beginning i was doing and saying the right things. I recently lost my boyfriend who asked me to marry him before he passed away. Married to my husband for over 18 years. 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